We waited for 2 hours for my sister cause he was sisters ride home and first, we went to yumilicious and got some yogurt. They had jenga there and we played it and no matter how kiddish it was, it was fun with him there. Then we were just driving along first to the dollar movie but then we changed our mind to go to downtown Plano. While driving there, we were jamming out and singing along to the radio. We made it to downtown Plano and went to this gorgeous park. It was so beautiful! We were just walking around and laughing and enjoying eachothers company. How I wished I brought my camera with me. And then I jumped on his back and covered his eyes and was trying to lead us back to his car but for some reason I kept laughing and almost ran us into a tree. It was funny. Then we went back to go pick up my sister and I rested my head on his shoulder while he was driving. Man is his driving unf! Sadly the night had to end when he dropped me off but last night, he sent me a good night text and he said, “thanks for hanging out with me. I had a lot of fun” and that made me smile a lot. What a way to end the night with him.
When I’m about to meet you. All the time. I don’t know why and I can’t help it. I just get really excited and then my heart starts to beat faster and then once you come, I smile to myself and then when I meet up with you, I feel complete and happy. What is this spell that you have put on me?? I like this feeling actually. It lets me know that hey lookie here, I really do like him.
I don’t like discussing what happened in the past. My mom just brought up my best friend from the past. She’s all like, “so do you no hang out with her anymore? What happened?” Obviously if she doesn’t come to our house anymore, I don’t hang out with her anymore, but I didn’t say anything. I didn’t say anything at all. No matter how much she prompted me, I was silent. I didn’t wanna say anything cause it would just bring up bad memories. And then she said, “wasn’t she your best friend?” And that’s what got me. my face started to get hot and all these memories started to come back. I actually feel like crying right now just cause of that. I’m sorry mommy, I don’t wanna discuss this. I don’t wanna say anything cause look what happens to me, I get emotional…
that i could have those cute good night texts or those good morning texts that would make me smile like a dummy to myself. something that would give me something to look forward to when i wake up. but ya know what? hes not like that. not all guys are like that and ive been fantasizing about having a guy like that and now that i do and he doesnt do this, its kinda depressing but ill get over it. not all guys are gonna be like that, and thats fine. he has his own way of making me smile like a dummy to myself, even if it doesnt involve good morning or goodnight texts. as long as he still makes me smile in some way, i dont need those.